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A Mother's Love

Title: A Mother's Love
Rating: Green Cortina
Word count: 630 words
Notes: Written for 1973flashfic for the love challenge. With thanks to my beta jinxed100 
Warning:  Canon character death and reference to suicide

One evening about a month after the wedding reception at which she had seen her husband for the last time Ruth Tyler looked at the bottle of aspirins and the bottle of gin and wondered if she had the strength to go on.  Of course she had known that her Vic had been involved in something dubious; there had been times when he had been hovering over the phone only to seem reluctant to answer it when it finally rang.  And the police didn’t come looking round the house without good reason.  Although Vic had his faults she had loved him and she knew he had loved her, so whatever he had done that meant he had had to leave her, it must have been really serious.

Despite what that nice DI Tyler had said, she knew she would never see her Vic again.  The kind words were meant for Sammy, not for her.  The thought of never being with Vic again, of having to live her life alone, of getting to be her mother’s age and even older without the one man she had loved seemed almost more than she could bear.

Ruth went into Sammy’s bedroom and bent down to kiss her little boy.  He stirred slightly and hugged the teddy he was cuddling closer to his chest.  She could feel the tears prickling at the back of her eyes and quickly left the room so that she wouldn’t disturb him.

Tears streaming down her face she went back to the kitchen and picked up the aspirins and the bottle of gin.  She carried both into the bathroom, poured them down the toilet and flushed them away.

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Over the years Ruth Tyler watched her small son grow up.  She saw him become a police constable and watched proudly as he progressed through the ranks of CID.  She smiled, if a little sadly, as her serious little boy grew into a serious young man and finally became a serious detective chief inspector.  Very occasionally she would wonder whether things would have been different for her son if Vic had stayed with them.

Sometimes she worried for Sam’s safety; being a policeman could be dangerous.  He would seek to reassure her that he always thought things through so that he took the correct precautions.  She wanted to say that one day something would happen so that he wasn’t thinking properly and that would be when it would go wrong; but she knew he wouldn’t understand, for he always acted by the book.

As soon as she saw the young constable at the door she knew something awful had happened to her Sammy.  Her face drained of all colour, she grabbed a jacket and let herself be driven to the hospital, where she would spend as much time as possible over the following weeks, sometimes talking to her son, sometimes just holding his hand.  At times she wished there was someone there to support her.  Heather came frequently, and Maya and others from the police station, but there was no-one with whom she could truly share the pain of seeing her only child lying so very still in his bed.

After the operation she watched as her son got better.  He left hospital and went back to work and everyone thought it was all over.  But she knew.  She looked in his eyes and saw the loss.  She didn’t understand what had happened to him whilst he had been unconscious, but she knew that, just as she’d lost something when her Vic had left, her Sam had lost something too.  Her love had pulled her in two different directions, but for Sam there was only the one; yes, he had come back, but only so they could say a proper goodbye.

 


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awabubbles
Feb. 17th, 2011 07:00 pm (UTC)
Wow. Really powerful perspective from Ruth, seeing the two men in her life leave her like this. I especially like the detail with the pills and the gin because you can see how much Vic's disappearance really affected her which is something that's never really reflected on in Sam's POV.
thesmallhobbit
Feb. 19th, 2011 11:37 am (UTC)
Thank you. Ruth always did her best for Sam and would never have shown him how she felt, but it must have been hard for her.
talkingtothesky
Feb. 19th, 2011 02:24 pm (UTC)
I really like this. ♥ Poor Ruth.
thesmallhobbit
Feb. 19th, 2011 10:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you, I'm glad you liked it.
basaltgrrl
Mar. 4th, 2011 02:03 pm (UTC)
Heart-wrenching! Makes one wonder if Sam ever appreciated what his mother went through...
thesmallhobbit
Mar. 5th, 2011 06:43 pm (UTC)
Having her only son recover from a serious accident only to lose him again would have been heart breaking and I'm sure she'd never have told Sam about the heartache she'd gone through when he was small.
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